PRIVATE WORKSHOP with JULIE WYNE for 2 hours. Can’t say anything but WHEW!!!

PENGAMEN KECIL

Hari ini ada sesuatu yg cukup istimewa dalam perjalanan pulang dari kantor ke rumah. Dari sarinah tamrin,tdk seperti biasa bis patas 70 datang sebelum jam 5. Seorang pengamen cilik yang tidak menarik perhatian naik...ketika aku sedang menerima telpon dari domie. Setelah telpon aku tutup..aku menyimak suara anak ini...dia bernyanyi dengan sungguh2 dan suaranya sangat baik. Seingatku dia menyanyikan 2 lagu...tp hanya 1 lagu yg aku ingat dengan jelas terlantun dari suaranya yg bervibrasi. "Berpisah untuk kembali"...mengingatkanku pada suatu masa...hiks...(wakakak!!! dah gak berasa ni..)
Entah mengapa aku sangat tergerak melihat anak ini...aku merasa dia punya talenta dan kesungguhan. Dia sangat berbeda dengan pengamen cilik lainnya yg terkesan tidak tahu apa2 selain meminta.
Di tengah dia menyanyikan lagu itu...aku berniat lebih dari sekedar memberikannya sedikit uang. Aku lalu mencari kertas dan menulis sebuah note yg berisi semacam acknowledgment. Intinya...aku ingin dia tahu kalau dia punya talenta dan supaya dia lebih menghargainya. Aku berharap dia bisa berusaha dengan modal itu untuk hidup lebih baik.

Best Ever!!!
weekend kemarin (25-26 november'06) aku pergi ke cipanas dgn teman2 mudika_6 vianney. Menyenangkan bisa berkumpul dengan teman2 ditempat yg sejuk dan jauh dari kota jakarta "the hectic city."
Efek negatif yang aku rasa adalah...hari ini (senin)aku seperti tidak bernyawa...saking ngantuk dan capeknya...
Hari sabtu sore jalan dari ceger menuju puncak...tidak diperkirakan waktu yg ditempuh lebih panjang karena macetnya jalan. Dengan sedikit merubah rencana,akirnya kita berhenti untuk makan di warung2 pinggir jalan disekitar puncak pass. Suasananya mengingatkanku akan touring jawa tengah semasa muda (sok tua!). Malam itu,kita nonton rekaman video kegiatan2 mudika 6...keren...membangkitkan sebuah rasa yang tidak bisa dijelaskan dengan kata2...Thanks to Ronny yg bersedia mengemasnya dengan sangat baik dan menyentuh. Setelah itu..aku mengalahkan rasa ngantuk dengan sharing bersama marsianus,bias,iin dan rony...till dawn. Gila!!! tapi sangat menyenangkan bisa berbagi pikiran dan cerita...paling tidak aku merasa mengenal teman2ku lebih dekat.
Pagi...ikut misa penyembuhan di lembah Carmel...sumpah!!! gak akan ada kata untuk menyesali lelah yang diakibatkan weekend kali ini. Dalam misa...aku tersentuh dengan suasananya..tidak ingin menyangkal dan tanpa ragu...air mata mengalir deras.
Sayang waktu berlalu cepat dan aku harus kembali pada kenyataan bahwa aku masih harus bekerja esok hari...
Satu hal yang sangat mendukung indahnya weekend kali ini...villa Bella Vista...yg kami tempati...adalah villa terbaik yg pernah aku rasakan. Best ever! (thanks to Bias...karena tanpa dia...villa ini mungkin hanya mimpi.)

I'm Thankful
When I get up, I'm thankful for a brand new day
When I get dressed, I'm thankful I can run and play
When I sit down to eat, I'm thankful for my food
and most of all I'm thankful for my Jesus who is good

Friday to Monday, mom and dad went to Jogja to attend Mas Bowo’s wedding. Domie accompanied me for two days. Frans and Devina joined us on Sunday. Lovely friends in need…

BANGSA INDONESIA BELUM BEBAS DARI PENJAJAH!!!
Kreatifitas kita dikebiri… tidak ada yang benar untuk kita lakukan…tidak bebas bahkan takut untuk bergerak…ditindas…dibodohi…diadu domba…Gila!!!
Waktunya untuk berfikir dan menghimpun kekuatan sebelum menuntut kemerdekan dan membela yang benar...

My Recent Working Place

After more than three months working in PSKD Mandiri, I am thinking about the changes in me and my life while trying to review my past. I am grateful to God about so many things since I am working in this place. I don’t discredit my last working place because there…I found comfort and warmth from my colleagues and my students.
Many who observe (honestly I do realize about this thing)…after working here, I almost never really healthy. There’s always any certain diseases in me. But in fact, I never fell suffer from any of it…my body is sick, but not my mind.
The thing that I realize now is that I have many new young and energetic colleagues. Colleagues who can be friends for shopping and sharing about anything. I thought (when I was still working in my previous place) I could not found such thing in this place. Moreover, I know Jakarta better now. Furthermore, I can use my English skills anytime since I have expatriate advisors and students. I can recall my memory of studying in college in the weekly IELT course and workshop hold by my present working place. The most important is that the great insurance I got since two weeks ago. So, I will fix and take good care about my health. No more problem right? Or someone wants to make ‘it’ for me?hehe...

"BREAK YOUR BORDER ..TOUCH THE SKY"

Kutu anjing adalah binatang yang mampu melompat 300 kali tinggi tubuhnya. Namun, apa yang terjadi bila ia dimasukan ke dalam sebuah kotak korek api kosong lalu dibiarkan disana selama satu hingga dua minggu? Hasilnya, kutu itu sekarang hanya mampu melompat setinggi kotak korek api saja! Kemampuannya melompat 300 kali tinggi tubuhnya tiba-tiba hilang.

Ini yang terjadi. Ketika kutu itu berada di dalam kotak korek api ia mencoba melompat tinggi. Tapi ia terbentur dinding kotak korek api. Ia mencoba lagi dan terbentur lagi.Terus begitu sehingga ia mulai ragu akan kemampuannya sendiri. Ia mulai berpikir, "Sepertinya kemampuan saya melompat memang hanya segini."
Kemudian loncatannya disesuaikan dengan tinggi kotak korek api. Aman. Dia tidak membentur. Saat itulah dia menjadi sangat yakin, "Nah benar kan ? Kemampuan saya memang cuma segini. Inilah saya!"

Ketika kutu itu sudah dikeluarkan dari kotak korek api, dia masih terus merasa bahwa batas kemampuan lompatnya hanya setinggi kotak korek api. Sang kutu pun hidup seperti itu hingga akhir hayat. Kemampuan yang sesungguhnya tidak tampak. Kehidupannya telah dibatasi oleh lingkungannya.

BREAK YOUR BORDER . . . . TOUCH THE SKY!

Many good things happened today!

At 7 o'clock this morning, I got a big news from Ibu Penni, my principal, that my probation is ended. Starting from this day, I have an insurance from alianz and reimbursement from PSKD Mandiri.Well..at least this is what I am waiting for about this three months. After all...who knows?hehe...
Today, for the whole day I joined grade 1 to have field trip to Ancol...it was very fun.
In the evening, we (PSKD Staff) had dinner together at Rendezvous Restaurant. Almost all teachers joined that event. Nice...exciting.

WEEKEND KALI INI...
(sabtu 30 September n Minggu 1 Oktober 2006)

Weekend-ku kali ini sangat luar biasa. Walaupun tidak berjalan seperti yg direncanakan...pergi ke dufan brg temen2 99ers. The show must go on.. Aku, domi dan tiwi going about Jakarta...gila2an...trus Nginep d slipi (kos domi). Malam itu kita tidur jm 3 pagi...
Malam itu aku di "sidang" ... GOSH! gak bisa njelasin gmn rasanya malam itu...campur aduk...panas dingin,deg-deg kan, sekaligus sgt bersyukur punya sahabat seperti mereka yg sangat care dan men-support aku. Kalo inget malam itu...gak berenti-berentinya aku heran...kok bisa ya?sempet berpikir dan sadar...ternyata aku dan teman2 sudah dewasa sehingga sharing malam itu bisa terjadi. Pagi aku sms amri...berharap dia ada bersama kita...akirnya dia nelpon... Siang, tiba2 adel nelpon dari Bintan. Orang-orang terdekatku dari masa kuliah sudah hadir pada hari ini. Sayangnya Franz harus masuk kerja di hari libur ini. Hidupku indah hari ini. Sepertinya weekend kali ini gak akan terlupakan...

My Brother's Wedding

After a long and tiring preparation,I could only say...
Finally...
Wish them a happy family!

Hari ini tgl 17 agustus…hari dimana bangsaku merayakan ulang tahun kemerdekaan. Tahun ini entah mengapa aku sangat merasakan arti kemerdekaan dan bersyukur dengan kemerdekaan ini. 17 Agustus kali ini aku peringati dengan ikut misa di gereja. Berbeda dengan tahun-tahun sebelumnya, walaupun kadang berdiri di lapangan, menghormat pada bendera dan mengheningkan cipta, tapi rasanya semua tidak ada artinya..aku hanya mengikuti irama dimana saatnya aku harus menghormat atau menunduk.
Hari ini aku benar-benar merasakan betapa bersyukurnya aku punya bangsa yang merdeka. Di tengah menyanyikan lagu-lagu kebangsaan di gereja tadi, tiba-tiba aku teringat mimpiku…cita2ku… Aku berpikir…negaraku sudah merdeka 61 tahun…aku bebas…aku punya kesempatan yang luas untuk merealisasikan mimpi2ku…dan semuanya tergantung aku sendiri.
Obsesi untuk membuat coffee shop muncul kembali dengan sangat kuatnya hari ini. Keinginan yang sejak kuliah dan sampai sekarang belum sedikitpun pudar. Tiba2 ide yang sederhana muncul…bagaimana mulai melakukan sesuatu untuk mewujudkannya daripada diam tak ada arti. Tadi siang aku berniat untuk menuliskan besar2 mimpiku ini diatas kertas untuk ditempelkan di dinding kamar, supaya aku selalu ingat dan selalu berpikir untuk berbuat sesuatu untuk mewujudkannya.
Malam ini tiba2 ide tentang brand muncul. Entah mengapa term “corner” sangat menyita perhatianku. Lalu aku mulai mencocok-cocokan…”Coffee Corner” atau “R” Coffee Corner…(hehe…lucu juga dah mikir segini jauh)
Ternyata enthusiasm is inspirational ya. Semoga antusiasme ini selalu ada. Aku harus bisa mewujudkan mimpiku. Ini adalah perjuangan hidupku untuk mengisi kemerdekaan bangsaku(hehehe…opo tho rik?)

BIRTHDAY

Today is my birthday. Birthday for me is always a BIG day even I rarely celebrate it. It's always special because I think that starting on that day I have to do something to change. Changes..just turn to be a better person.
Things for sure in my 25th birthday are that I have my own original signature for the first time in my life. Hopefully it will give me more good luck.
Second thing, I feel more mature in the way of thinking. I have many dreams and decided to get them. Whatever it takes, I hope my resolution on SPD class will give more spirit for me to get there. “NEVER GIVE UP!”
Just we’ll see what will happen with me in one, two, three or many years to come.
one thing I have done was that I tryto be brave and step outside of my comfort zone. I'm sure I'll get a nice big boost to my confidence!

ON NANA'S WEDDING
Nana, one of my best friends, is finally married. One of her dreams...to marry with her man named Anggi. I’m happy for them. Finally after 8 years, not a short time, they made 'it' legal, hihi...

It was great…four days in Lampung to be her maid of honor, to know her families and relatives...

Such moment invited question from many other people … “When will you, rika?” and what should I answer then? Sighed. It is one of my dreams but not my first obsession... (It was my answer in my heart)

Well, at least they promised me wishes to get there…

Monday 19th, for the last time I became a Master of Ceremony of an event in Charitas. Farewell for the third grade…meant a farewell for me too. I think I have done my best on that event. Even though I know it was not the best or even going as the plan, but I did the best. Seeing and talking to some of my students for the last time…
What I’m sure I’m gonna miss them all, gonna miss those times, gonna miss everything and everyone there…

WENT HOME
even only 2 days spending my time in my lovely hometown (Jogja) finally I can see by my eyes..
and still no word...

EVERYBODY HURTS
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.

lyric taken from: REM album: Automatic for the People

JOGJA THE LOVELY
Bad news came in this early morning. My lovely Jogja, the place where I used to live, is dressed in mourning because of the earthquakes. Words can’t describe how I feel sorrow thinking all my families, relatives and friends there. No word…what I know is only my want of going there…to share and to feel what they feel. Can’t imagine how sad and frightened they are. I can only pray and hope for the best. Still I can’t leave my ego…will my Jogja will be as lovely as it was previously?

MY WAY
I’m not trying to be emotional with my life recently, but I do appreciate every single thing related with my present working place. Just like today, today is my last teaching hours for my first grade students. A year is not a short time to involve with all of them, to know their characters, to try to understand their thoughts and dreams.
It’s never been easy to say good bye. In fact, I really really feel comfort to deal with everyone there. A question might be asked, “Why should I move then?”
Well, I realize that sometimes I have to break my comfort zone to make a forward movement. (Seems SPD subject in college inspired my thought a lot). That’s why I have to move, I have to change and I think…now is the right time.
One ever said

“The ship in harbour is safe, but it isn’t the ship for”

and I do agree with that.

SADHAR PBI'99
I really really proud being a part of "Sadhar PBI'99".Today, I met almost all college friends who stay in this hectic city. It's amazing to keep in touch with them and to talk about anything after some times. Nice to know that I have so many friends who still appreciate and mantain friendship and social life in their daily busy days. I feel so lucky to get involved with them. It's just like I have my family in Jogja back to me. I feel blessed to have them. I'm sure when I fall someday, they will catch me. Know what??? Suddenly, I remembered what Ms. Lanny said "saudara tidak dilihat dari hubungan darah tapi dari kebajikan".

Letter of Resignation

For over a month I’ve waited for this time. Now, as well as my desire to end, I also feel really sad to finish my job here and to leave behind the things I have already built.

As I wrote in this bloglines before, last Friday I felt very excited. One of my dreams is coming true. Now…I realize that I feel as if my excitement and my fear collide.

For over a year (1 year and 2 months for exact), I’m working in this institution. It’s been a pleasure since I found such comfort working atmosphere, lovely friendships and brotherhood with collages and students. I do appreciate all these things. I really do.

In spite of thinking those lovely things, I have my own commitment in life that are my concern in education and also my commitment in learning…to learn …to develop...to upgrade myself.

I'm not the one who can easily be satisfied. Since I have taken English Department as my majorin University, I have commitment to maintain the skills I got in college. I started to dream to live abroad someday or at least go overseas for months. As the time goes by, I know it won't be that easy. I do realize that what I want is only an opportunity to live or to work in English speaking community. I want to encourage my English speaking skills since my present job gives me little opportunity to speak much.

Finally, my dream will come true in this end of academic year. I will have my new working place where I will have expatriates to work with and students whose mother tongue are English. I will have more opportunities to use my English. However, I hope what I have decided won’t make any regret in the future.

Hari jumat kemarin (27 April) doaku terkabul.kabar yang aku tunggu2 hampir sebulan ini dateng juga. gak rugi novena selama ini...Bunda Maria memang selalu bisa diandalkan.Fiuh...hari ini capek bgt. Hidup di jakarta yang super padat penduduknya, menghabiskan berjam jam di jalan yang padat merayap. Tapi semuanya terbayar dengan harapan masa depan yang lebih baik...apa coba??? pengen crita...tp masih off d record ni.